Look to the bigger Him

Being a doctor isn’t going to be easy
But I’ll never give up
because it’s what I’m called to be
and it makes me happy.

I promise.
I’ll never give up.

Nothing’s too tough anyway
Because God is bigger
And I’m His beloved.

cheers!

The I AM in me

Even when I couldn’t accept myself for who I am, He does.
I couldn’t think of any greater gift, than this unconditional love.
He takes away my shame and fills me with joy and acceptance.

Even when I couldn’t love myself for who I am,
He does.

Hope in the darkness

And so, the time has finally come.
Not surprised, not down.
A little disappointed maybe.

But come to think of it, I should actually be grateful.

With all the wrong I’ve done.
Silly mistakes only weaklings like me will make.
A silly girl that needs guidance every second of the day.

A faith shallow as the stream.
One glance, one stomp, one kick.
And you’ll rob it of its peace.

Could anyone be as lucky as me?
Having you in me, all the days of my life.

The author and finisher of my faith.
The unmovable rock.
The amazing grace.
The unending love.

My sweet loving Jesus.

Acceptance

Silently, the wind changes its course.

Without warning, without compassion.

Forcing the girl against her steps.

Driving her into an unknown direction.

She turns around, terrified.

Heart beating uncontrollably.

So fast, she thought it has stopped working.

So violently she lost her mind.

She runs without a direction.

Shouting like a helpless child.

Afraid that a beast might leap out.

And there, her heart might really stop beating.

She trips over a rock and falls.

Exhausted, she lies panting on the ground.

Tears falling, knee bleeding, heart giving up.

And behold, a ray of light shines on her cheeks.

She lifts her head up, and smiles.

“Daddy’s here. It’s time to go home.”

And a voice gently says.

“Come, come to me.

Don’t struggle, just let go.”

Love is in Your eyes

In Your eyes, I found the greatest prize

You and I could not be closer

And in Your arms, is everything I want

Now I know my search is over

 

I don’t know where You’ll take me

But it’s exactly where I wanna be

 

It’s where the stars line up

It’s when the oceans touch

It’s in a place you’ve never been that feels like home

It’s in the air right now

It’s when you give your all and give a little more

I’ve never been so sure

That’s where you find love

 

The holiday

Hello, long time no see. 😀 Heh.

Been really busy for..well..everything. @@ I just finished my second module exam! Gah, don’t ever mention it in front of me again. =x And I still have AMSEP, AMSA Charity, marching for SUKEM, JWN. Argh!! You know..the whole AM- AM- thing is driving me crazy. I really don’t wanna log on to Facebook, if I do, I will see many notifications about AMSEP AMSA AMSEP AMSA AMSEP AMSA arghhhhh.

I promised Ly Er to update my blog two days ago, and this is what happens. Haha. Sorry~

Oh ya, I got B+ for my previous module. I hope I can do better next time. Look up to A, look higher to God! 🙂

It’s a really short break for me. A one week holiday suddenly feels like only three days. Shockingly, I’m not used to not studying everyday like I used to, when time is not enough and you have to negotiate with yourself.

 

If you want to nap now, you cannot sleep early at night.

If you cannot finish this chapter, you cannot sleep.

If you nap more than one hour, you have to skip dinner.

If you go down to cafe and have dinner, you have to eat biscuits for the next day’s lunch.

So. Torturous.

Oh well, I’m in a medical school after all. HAHA. I’m still happy despite it’s tiring. 🙂

Silly me.

I notice someone is stalking my blog. I mean, my another blog at Blogger. It’s freaking creepy. I know if you write a blog, people will definitely read it. But still, the feeling of someone reading every post you write is spooky. Well, I guess it depends on who… By the way, I am still wondering whether I should post the link to this blog at my Blogger.

It was Big Day at youth today, so glad that the two Loos (my sisters) went with me. 🙂 Joy sang one of her songs during worship today. It was so nice. I have to say, she is gifted. I really like it, too bad I can’t remember the lyrics now. I hope she’ll sing it tomorrow during service, or during next week Youth Sunday. 🙂

I got a random gift from my pastor today! So touched. Thank God for prompting me to approach pastor and to ask him about the book, or I wouldn’t get it, for free. I guess pastor also sensed something from God. Haha! God is ever so on time. With so many things I have to face lately, I am getting confused and I don’t seem to know my purpose in life. Of course my lovely Papa wouldn’t let me go astray. If you wanna know, the title of the book is “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren.

 

 

Sometimes it just makes me wonder, wouldn’t God be confused? Having to plan everything for everyone.

Silly me! He’s not just anybody, He is God! What kind of stupid question is that? LOL. Aren’t you glad that you have Him? 🙂

 

 

You are my safest place to be. You are where my tears would choose to go. You are where I can be myself. You are where I do not have to hide my sadness. You are where I do not have to pretend. You are where I wanna be.

 

 

Sometimes I would just smile, thinking that I have God.

 

 

A smile so assuring.

An assurance so comforting.

A comfort so, so warm.

Burning the midnight oil

Here I am, planning to burn the midnight oil with my whole stack of lecture notes blogging. LOL

Okay, okaaaaaay. I know I should be studying! But I just couldn’t resist the urge to write.

Today is quite a happy day because I’ve been chosen to be part of the organizing committee for AMSEP (Asian Medical Student Exchange Program). I passed my interview, got my first choice! =] Praise God. It has been raining for almost the whole afternoon and the whole night, managed to skip marching practice. Heheee. Speaking of marching, I was also chosen to be one of the flag bearers. Quite a happy thing because all I have to do is just to carry the flag and march, while the others have to do formation. *grins*

I think I’ve wasted my time long enough. It’s time to really study. Hahaa. Do pray for me. =] My exam is on next Monday.