想你了

有没有一个人,即使过了很久很久,心还是会想起。

有没有一个人,会让你小鹿乱撞,心跳加速,脸颊泛红。

有没有一个人,即使对方忘了你的存在,即使与他在生活上已经没有任何交叉点,即使…在剩下的只有’不可能’三个字,心里还是偷偷的期待着。

期待着奇迹。期待着下一个转角。期待着明天的日出。

或许我们还有联络的理由,或许在路上转个弯我们就遇见了,或许明天日出时,陪在我身旁的人是你。

有没有一个人,其实他不特别。你找不到什么特大的优点,也找不到什么特优的条件。但偏偏,他就是那么独一无二。

有没有一个人,走到最后才发现,原来自己从未把他忘记。

六年了。现在才发现原来我从来没有把那份感情放下。六年了。刚刚用手指数一数,我也吓到了。人生有多少个六年?

以前你的眼睛从来都不会看到我,不知道是无心还是刻意的。但你知道吗?以前的我很努力的记住你的背影,因为唯有在你转身的时候我才有勇气看着你。

明天的日出,我们一起看好吗?我在这里看,你在那里看。

My debt is paid

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I would like to share a song that I’ve been listening everyday lately – Man of Sorrows by Hillsong. Really love it! A song that touches the very core of my heart, reminding me all that Jesus had done for me, not because of how good I am, but because of how great His love is.

Man of sorrows, Lamb of God

By His own betrayed

The sin of man and wrath of God

Has been on Jesus laid

Silent as He stood accused

Beaten, mocked and scorned

Bowing to the Father’s will

He took a crown of thorns

Oh that rugged cross, my salvation

Where Your love poured out over me

Now my soul cries out, Hallelujah

Praise and honour unto Thee

Sent of heaven God’s own son

To purchase and redeem

And reconcile the very ones

Who nailed Him to that tree

Oh that rugged cross, my salvation

Where Your love poured out over me

Now my soul cries out, Hallelujah

Praise and honour unto Thee

Now my debt is paid

It is paid in full

By the precious blood

That my Jesus spilled

Now the curse of sin

Has no hold on me

Whom the Son sets free

Oh is free indeed

See the stone is rolled away

Behold the empty tomb

Hallelujah God be praised

He’s risen from the grave

Unspoken words

Had a gathering with two friends yesterday night. We were best friends in primary school, there was nothing we did not share with each other. I guess in some ways, we still are best friends now. Since we left primary school, we did not see each other. And after eight years, we just decided to meet up randomly.

It was a simple dinner. We talked about life and memories and dreams. It was so heart-warming yesterday. Even though it has been eight years, there is still something very familiar about everyone, though I can’t tell what. Maybe it’s just the way we talk, some special words we used to say and are still saying now, some gestures that remind you of the times in primary school, the laughter and the same old topic we like to talk about, the little things that we often neglect, but has unconsciously become a part of who we are.

Being blessed to have lived 20 years, I’ve learnt that good friends don’t necessarily have to see each other very often. True friends are the ones you’d still have heaps and heaps of things to share with even after..8 years? 🙂 I believe there are more 8 years to come.

And when life has bit by bit transformed us in some ways we could not tell, I believe real friends are the ones who can still tell who you really are, even if it remained unspoken.

Look to the bigger Him

Being a doctor isn’t going to be easy
But I’ll never give up
because it’s what I’m called to be
and it makes me happy.

I promise.
I’ll never give up.

Nothing’s too tough anyway
Because God is bigger
And I’m His beloved.

cheers!

The I AM in me

Even when I couldn’t accept myself for who I am, He does.
I couldn’t think of any greater gift, than this unconditional love.
He takes away my shame and fills me with joy and acceptance.

Even when I couldn’t love myself for who I am,
He does.

Hope in the darkness

And so, the time has finally come.
Not surprised, not down.
A little disappointed maybe.

But come to think of it, I should actually be grateful.

With all the wrong I’ve done.
Silly mistakes only weaklings like me will make.
A silly girl that needs guidance every second of the day.

A faith shallow as the stream.
One glance, one stomp, one kick.
And you’ll rob it of its peace.

Could anyone be as lucky as me?
Having you in me, all the days of my life.

The author and finisher of my faith.
The unmovable rock.
The amazing grace.
The unending love.

My sweet loving Jesus.

Acceptance

Silently, the wind changes its course.

Without warning, without compassion.

Forcing the girl against her steps.

Driving her into an unknown direction.

She turns around, terrified.

Heart beating uncontrollably.

So fast, she thought it has stopped working.

So violently she lost her mind.

She runs without a direction.

Shouting like a helpless child.

Afraid that a beast might leap out.

And there, her heart might really stop beating.

She trips over a rock and falls.

Exhausted, she lies panting on the ground.

Tears falling, knee bleeding, heart giving up.

And behold, a ray of light shines on her cheeks.

She lifts her head up, and smiles.

“Daddy’s here. It’s time to go home.”

And a voice gently says.

“Come, come to me.

Don’t struggle, just let go.”

Love is in Your eyes

In Your eyes, I found the greatest prize

You and I could not be closer

And in Your arms, is everything I want

Now I know my search is over

 

I don’t know where You’ll take me

But it’s exactly where I wanna be

 

It’s where the stars line up

It’s when the oceans touch

It’s in a place you’ve never been that feels like home

It’s in the air right now

It’s when you give your all and give a little more

I’ve never been so sure

That’s where you find love

 

Silly me.

I notice someone is stalking my blog. I mean, my another blog at Blogger. It’s freaking creepy. I know if you write a blog, people will definitely read it. But still, the feeling of someone reading every post you write is spooky. Well, I guess it depends on who… By the way, I am still wondering whether I should post the link to this blog at my Blogger.

It was Big Day at youth today, so glad that the two Loos (my sisters) went with me. 🙂 Joy sang one of her songs during worship today. It was so nice. I have to say, she is gifted. I really like it, too bad I can’t remember the lyrics now. I hope she’ll sing it tomorrow during service, or during next week Youth Sunday. 🙂

I got a random gift from my pastor today! So touched. Thank God for prompting me to approach pastor and to ask him about the book, or I wouldn’t get it, for free. I guess pastor also sensed something from God. Haha! God is ever so on time. With so many things I have to face lately, I am getting confused and I don’t seem to know my purpose in life. Of course my lovely Papa wouldn’t let me go astray. If you wanna know, the title of the book is “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren.

 

 

Sometimes it just makes me wonder, wouldn’t God be confused? Having to plan everything for everyone.

Silly me! He’s not just anybody, He is God! What kind of stupid question is that? LOL. Aren’t you glad that you have Him? 🙂

 

 

You are my safest place to be. You are where my tears would choose to go. You are where I can be myself. You are where I do not have to hide my sadness. You are where I do not have to pretend. You are where I wanna be.

 

 

Sometimes I would just smile, thinking that I have God.

 

 

A smile so assuring.

An assurance so comforting.

A comfort so, so warm.