My debt is paid

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I would like to share a song that I’ve been listening everyday lately – Man of Sorrows by Hillsong. Really love it! A song that touches the very core of my heart, reminding me all that Jesus had done for me, not because of how good I am, but because of how great His love is.

Man of sorrows, Lamb of God

By His own betrayed

The sin of man and wrath of God

Has been on Jesus laid

Silent as He stood accused

Beaten, mocked and scorned

Bowing to the Father’s will

He took a crown of thorns

Oh that rugged cross, my salvation

Where Your love poured out over me

Now my soul cries out, Hallelujah

Praise and honour unto Thee

Sent of heaven God’s own son

To purchase and redeem

And reconcile the very ones

Who nailed Him to that tree

Oh that rugged cross, my salvation

Where Your love poured out over me

Now my soul cries out, Hallelujah

Praise and honour unto Thee

Now my debt is paid

It is paid in full

By the precious blood

That my Jesus spilled

Now the curse of sin

Has no hold on me

Whom the Son sets free

Oh is free indeed

See the stone is rolled away

Behold the empty tomb

Hallelujah God be praised

He’s risen from the grave

Oceans

You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown

Where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

 

And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

 

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

 

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my faith could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger 

In the presence of my saviour

Hillsong

Acceptance

Silently, the wind changes its course.

Without warning, without compassion.

Forcing the girl against her steps.

Driving her into an unknown direction.

She turns around, terrified.

Heart beating uncontrollably.

So fast, she thought it has stopped working.

So violently she lost her mind.

She runs without a direction.

Shouting like a helpless child.

Afraid that a beast might leap out.

And there, her heart might really stop beating.

She trips over a rock and falls.

Exhausted, she lies panting on the ground.

Tears falling, knee bleeding, heart giving up.

And behold, a ray of light shines on her cheeks.

She lifts her head up, and smiles.

“Daddy’s here. It’s time to go home.”

And a voice gently says.

“Come, come to me.

Don’t struggle, just let go.”

Love is in Your eyes

In Your eyes, I found the greatest prize

You and I could not be closer

And in Your arms, is everything I want

Now I know my search is over

 

I don’t know where You’ll take me

But it’s exactly where I wanna be

 

It’s where the stars line up

It’s when the oceans touch

It’s in a place you’ve never been that feels like home

It’s in the air right now

It’s when you give your all and give a little more

I’ve never been so sure

That’s where you find love

 

Small steps.

Have you ever heard of buddy line? It’s a very special system in university, only local uni I suppose. When you first enter uni as a first year student, your second year seniors will get to pick the ones they like to be their buddy. And when it’s your turn, you get to pick your own buddy! And the list goes on and on, forming a buddy line from the first year until the final year. Buddies are people who will help you throughout your whole university life, be it in your studies or any problems in life. What’s so special about it is that buddy relationship will never end. Even until you graduate and come out and work, your buddies will still be your buddies. Nothing can change that.

To be honest, when I first heard about this whole buddy line thing, I thought, “What lame thing is this? I don’t have time in uni for all this nonsense.” That was me, that was everyone before they enter uni. 

University literally flip my world upside down. Just three weeks here, and my point of view has totally changed. Buddy line is really meaningful, and I treasure it. Maybe it’s a sad thing for me. I know deeply how much I treasure my relationship with other people. One day, like it or not, we will have to say goodbye. Taking along everything we’ve been through, reminiscing the good old days. Although my buddies and I are not really close yet, I really treasure them like how I treasure my family. If anyone of you happen to see this, just know that you are important to me. 

I thank God for giving me my buddies. I thank God for giving me people who will strengthen my faith along this long long road. I thank God for giving me people who really take good care of me. I thank God for arranging everything so nicely for me. I thank God for sending people to inspire me. 

 

Little baby steps.

 

 

One step at a time.

Love

I want to share a poem written by Pablo Neruda. I never knew this poem until we watched the movie Patch Adams yesterday. *in case you don’t know, I’m now in a Personal and Professional Development Camp for the medical students* It’s really a nice movie!! You must watch if you are studying Medicine. If you are not you should also watch it! There are a lot of meaningful quotes in this movie but this one really touched my heart. It’s not about that kind of ordinary puppy kitten or whatever cheesy unmature kind of love, it’s about what love really is. And if the first thing on your mind is boy-girl relationship, sorry to say but I think you are just too shallow. I hope this will make your day, because it did so to me. And what’s more, it completed my day. 🙂

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:
where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that when your eyes close,
I fall asleep.